But, so far, I think I've made some further advancement in this project.
I mean, did I even state what I was hoping I'd learn from this project? No? Maybe I did, but I'm too lazy to go back and read my other posts, so I'll just say it again to make you suffer.
Anyways.
What I was hoping to accomplish from this project was to become more independent. Because, as of since the last 8/9 years of my life, I have relied on She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named for any and all social experiences I might have (I.E. hanging out/making new friends, talking to people, if she didn't go to a social event, then it was highly unlikely that I'd be there and vice versa.) Like, seriously though, almost all the friends I have now I have because of her. (I mean, it's not necessarily a bad thing, but it's definitely not something that's going to help me in college.)
So, we decided it was high time we break the umbilical cord and set out on our own to learn how to converse and meet new people without the assistance of The Other One.
It's going pretty great so far, but I have since learned that I much value the closeness of friends rather than big groups of them. I'm not trying to be mean or anything, but if I had to choose between only having a couple of close friends and having a big group of friends who I hang out with occasionally - well - I'd choose the closer relationships.
It's just - that's - me. I guess. That's just me. Yes, I do look back on my social life and wish I had more friends and people to hang out with after school but A) I wouldn't be able to accomplish it because I'm just that bad at conversations B) I'm generally a pretty boring person without She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named C) And - I don't know. I tend to sort of freeze up when I'm around other people. Like, I don't know what to do or say or -
Yeah. I'll shut up. Pity Party's over people. Take your party bags and get out.
No - but - yeah. Progress is good. It's good. Really. I mean, I hung out with someone who is not Her for once, and - I - Um. Well, that's about it, really. I've still got to take some of you guys up on your lunch offers so I can blog about that, too, but, in all honesty. I've got nothing new to report. So.
Here's a baby.
And a Pikachu.
And some good looking guys.
Sorry, I'm sort of in love with this dork. He's just so...
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Okay. Yes. I'm done. I swear. I'm done.
I Lied.
Wow! As simple as this project sounds, I see it is an extremely complicated and emotional journey for you two. I remember in elementary school, all three of us hung out! But I remember you two having such a close relationship and unique bond. It was and is fascinating how much you two can do for one another. And it is so neat that you can appreciate your friendship so much, it's something not many people seem to do! But I think this is good that you're learning to be independent, and realize your full potential with or without her by your side:) And what you learn apart from eachother, you can share with one another when you are together! Good job and good luck:)
ReplyDeletei reallly enjoy reading your posts there really clever and make everything seem so ,... i just laugh the entire time
ReplyDeleteit seems like your doing good with out her but so complicated at the same time
Dude you make me laugh every single time it’s a bit ridiculous, and well embarrassing due to the fact my laugh often sounds like a dying hyena or pterodactyl… And unfortunately not the cute kind from cartoon Disney movies I definitely agree to your philosophy, a close friend is a million items better than the few you bump into from time to time at awkward social events, and then they all say (I MISS YOU ITS BEEN FOREVER, LETS HANGOUT!?), then you don’t seen them till the next awkward encounter. But I still do praise you for stepping into the wild and into the uncharted waters of looking for new friends, it isn’t easy doing so, keep it up Watson! My offer for lunch on Thursdays is still on the table, who knows we can even do it next week and I can drag you and the (other one) and we can all go together, it will be swell.
ReplyDeleteThis post is super relateable for me. I have that friend too, the one that you feel you need to have around in order to be comfortable and conversational and non-awkward with new people (Or at least thats what I gathered Lock is to you here). It's hard to be independent and "yourself" at the same time. But from the couple of times you've talked to me, you seem like a pretty nice person! So don't beat yourself up when you're alone. Be confident : ) and if it's hard to be confident, as it is for me too, just fake it. No one will notice ;)
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